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Japan is changing or maybe just drunk

the journal of Michael Werneburg

twenty-eight years and a million words

Kokubunji, 2024.10.23

I think I was punched on the Chuo line tonight. I arrived at the platform in Shinjuku with a surprisingly light crowd waiting for the train, which happened to be a limited express. When the train arrived, however, very few people got off and so despite my being second from the front of the line I was one of the last people who could fit on the train. Two more people pressed in behind me, of course, and then we waited.

I think what happened next was that someone else tried to board despite their being no room. I was pressed up against an absolutely tiny woman who was so short my camera bag would have been in her face if I hadn't held it aloft. I could absolutely not press my 105kg frame forward onto her despite the growing desperation behind me. The pushing became violent with the combatants behind me wrestling for that last spot on the train that would save them eight minutes. It was then that I felt a sharp jab in my lower back, so I yelled, "Quit it!" over my shoulder. Some other guy then chirps up, asking what my problem is. I said, "What do you think!" and we departed in silence and stillness.

I honestly don't know that things like this were happening in a commuter train full of forty-to-seventy year olds when I first got here almost twenty years ago. But then, pay-day was three days ago, so perhaps one or more of my fellow-passengers had been drinking.

rand()m quote

The man who lies to himself and listens to his own lie comes to such a pass that he cannot distinguish the truth within him, or around him, and so loses all respect for himself and for others. And having no respect he ceases to love, and in order to occupy and distract himself without love he gives way to passions and coarse pleasures, and sinks to bestiality in his vices, all from continual lying to other men and to himself.

—Fyodor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov